The contribution is an uncertain experiment; a series of fractured and fabulated video (re)turnings that tell on and in the seductive forces making (im)possible claims to know, and takes the form of fragmentary visual re-tellings of the becoming research(er) body. These visual re-tellings are assembled in video format and can be viewed at this link https://youtu.be/aulMQNEDhGo . This ‘paper’ contributes to ongoing debates that seek shifts from representationalist research foundations. The (re)turnings (the visual re-tellings) offered here pose questions of what is at stake for qualitative researchers in (dis)claiming the ‘I’ that legitimates them as researching bodies; they expose the limits of reason, the precarity of being thus – seduced by and in discipline, reason and rigor, and contained in and by bodies of research.